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TAKE A SLOW WALK THROUGH THE SCRIPTURES

If you have been reading my posts or following my other social media, I have suggested you slow down and live reflectively. Take deep breaths in the present time God is gifting you. Contemplate as you create to take in what God is sharing with you.   Do not dwell in the past because that has past. Do not fret  the future because you are not walking that path right now. Take God’s hand as He walks you through the joys (or tears) of the now.

Easier said than done. The past affects the present  and the future is our tomorrow’s present.

How we allow God to walk  us through the present and help deal with the past will affect how the future is handled.

Do these books look familiar? If not,  that is OK. They are my current GO TO  books for encouragement, inspiration and challenge.Jpeg

Margaret Feinberg’s book seems to speaks to points of my need at the right time.

Proverbs ground us in the life God intends”.1

If I want to be grounded in the life God intends for me, I need to do more with Proverbs than slide over the words as a mere check off  to-do box. This is a relationship.

The second book, The Reflective Life has tools to help implement a reflective life into our everyday life. The Growth Of The Reflective Life (Part VI)  includes help with the scriptures.

Do you think it is possible to have a fresh breath of the Words of Solomon?

Can these word have the same affect on a modern 21st century reader as they did when Solomon first heard them?

In the section entitled “ Reflecting on the Scriptures”  Ken takes the passage  Luke 10:38-42. and shows how he uses the  following items  to help  obtain the fresh wind for himself.

  • READING THE MOMENT
  • REFLECTING THE MOMENT
  • RESPONDING TO THE MOMENT
  • PRAY THROUGH THE PASSAGE
  • GIVE THE PASSAGE A PLACE TO LIVE IN YOUR HEART2
    These contemplative actions are slow and  deliberate engagements to connect with our Creator. They can be worked through all the scriptures.   The last  two sit at the Master’s feet and listen. The last two take the Master’s hand and go where He leads.

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The following is an example of the gift I received as I took deep steps to respond to a reading in Proverbs  using Ken’s reflections guide  As you allow yourself to go deeper, be open to life changing possibilities.

Proverbs 15:31-32 New Living Translation (NLT)

31 If you listen to constructive criticism,
    you will be at home among the wise.

32 If you reject discipline, you only harm yourself;
    but if you listen to correction, you grow in understanding.

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What do you have for me God?

As a creative person, criticism is one of the last things I may  initially want  to  hear. I know I work hard to make physical, the beauty my mind and soul is enjoying, whether it is through writing, photography or fiber arts (knitting /crocheting).

The truth is, what does God want? “ If I listen to constructive criticism, I will be at home among the wise .”

“If I reject criticism, I only harm myself, but if I listen to correction I will grow in understanding.” (The One Year Bible NLT. I changed the nouns to make it personal as you read it.)

Verse 32 is a bit sharper in the results of one who does not take criticism

Those who disregard discipline despise themselves,

but the one who heeds correction gains understanding.NIV

What do you hear?

Is there a past pain causing rejection from any critique?  If you do not discipline yourself in the creativity God is calling you, are you being true to yourself and what He wants to share.  Does perfection and comparison from the past or fear of the future keep you from living in the present?  Allow Him to come inside. He is gentle.

 

 

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Taking a slower walk through the scriptures will allow you to hear God’s voice, HIS JOY, HIS TRUTH.  As you walk deeper in His Kingdom,  the passage will have a place in your heart. It cannot help but flow out. Join me as we walk deeper. Your creativity will reflect that walk.

Wild flowers are beautiful

Be

Free

To

Worship

As

You

Were

Created!




1 Margaret Feinberg FLOURISH  Live Loved Live Fearless Live Free. ⓒ2016 p52
2 Ken Gire THE REFLECTIVE LIFE ©1998 pp 107-120


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Nurture a Reflective Life —Slow Down

Contemplative Photography is taking me into a deeper adventure.   All new adventures bring with it something a  bit daunting. I open the door asking God, what is ahead of  me. As I gaze upon a blooming flower, or see dark clouds cover the sky, is the message being shared reflecting  the beauty of God’s creation alone , or is He motioning me to — Come further up, come further in!” ― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle.

Put the words “Nurture a reflective life” and ” Be contemplative in my photography” together.  But how?

SLOW DOWN IN WHAT! SLOW DOWN TO WHAT?

  • Activities?
  • My mind?
  • Walking?

Will this “slowing down” automatically happen if my body stops doing?  Probably not. The mind can frantically race with yesterday’s events and tomorrow’s needs while the body is lying in bed.

Being  reflective  is making an active decision to engage in the surroundings. Going deeper than the top layer.

WHAT IS GOD SAYING?

CAN I FEEL HIS TOUCH, HIS LOVE IN THE GENTLE BREEZE AS IT PASSES BY MY FACE ?

HOW CAN I REFLECT THIS TOUCH IN A PHOTO AND SHARE HIS HEART?

Slow Down and reflect Tammy Morton Photo They teach us to dream

                                                                                      Tammy Morton’s photo entitled:

                                                                                                         ” THEY TEACH US TO DREAM”1

Is it possible to slow down and reflect in the rush  of daily activities?  In the course of routine housework, am I willing to mentally or emotionally slow down, take God’s  hand and reflect on His Words to me?  The beauty of nature, color all around,  waves of the lake lapping against the rocks, a walk through the woods,

 

have a greater  intensity for intimate interaction with my Creator than cleaning the kitchen. I can imaging slowing down and reflecting in a sunrise.

How can I slow down and reflect, let alone create with a photo through daily chores?  Mindless, thoughtless, repetitive cleaning do not compose a creative story.

 

The first question might be: 1.Do I want to take the mental energy  to engage to create space for God to enter into the chores? —-  2. Does God really care to enter into my time of cleaning? I know He is with me always, but really, intimate chats  while doing housework?

  • Slow Down
  • Be Present in the Moment
  • Take a Long Loving Look at the Real.
  • What is God Saying Now?

Reflection Through a Veggie Drawer.

 I needed to put the groceries away. The veggie drawer was covered with yellow onion skins so I decided to dump these out. Then I would give the drawer a quick swipe.   😝 Thinking about my photography assignment, I ask  God, “Is there something You want to show me?

I used these  tools from  The Reflective Life by Ken Gire.2

  • Read the moment—Using my  eyes to see what’s on the surface.
  • Reflecting on the moment -Engaging my  mind to see what’s beneath the surface.
  • Responding to the moment –  Giving what I saw and received  a place to live in my heart, allowing it to grow there, upward to God and outward to other people.

An interesting cleaning experience took place.

I needed to scrub extra hard in cleaning the icky sticky goo I found close to the ridges. These ridges  took longer to clean than I wanted to give my attention to the whole drawer cleaning business.  In fact, the cleaning  was getting  boring. Thoughts began to race “Did I really want to make sure the drawer was thoroughly clean? All sticky goo gone? (Remember, at first, I was only going to dump the loose skins into the garbage . 😄 )

What was  God’s response to the sticky goo hiding next to the ridges no one sees inside of me, the gunk hard to get at?  The outside is nice and clean, but there are areas where some stuff  needs more time to (re)move.

God will never leave a job half done.

 God started with the outer layer and cleaned away the onion skins.  God then looks deeper and says “I will stay with you and clean the icky sticky goo hidden inside. I will gently clean til  the job is completed.

WHY?

Years ago I said YES to Him  and I desire His beauty to reflect through me.

(6being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Phil. 1:6 NIV)

Who knew the simple non creative job of cleaning a veggie drawer could bring me into the throne room to  interact with my Savior and Friend?

As a result the connection of slowing down I created two photos from my cleaning.

 

Be willing to enter into the moment. Slow your brain down. All you have is the reality right in front of you. The Creator of the Universe is at hand at all times to engage in the moment with you.

Slowing  down is not easy in the fast paced world. Feel free to share your victories and your battles. We are on this road together.

 Be

free

To

Worship

As

You

Were

Created!


1Thank you Tammy Morton for saying Yes and allowing me to us this picture.

2THE REFLECTIVE LIFE (Becoming More Spiritually Sensitive to the Everyday Moments of Life) by Ken Gire © 1998 p.88.


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I AM LOVED

  “But the man who is not afraid to admit everything that he sees to be wrong with himself, and yet recognizes that he may be the object of God’s love precisely because of his shortcomings, can begin to be sincere. His sincerity is based on confidence, not in his own illusions about himself, but in the endless, unfailing mercy of God.1

  • Comparison
  • Pride
  • Perfectionism
  • Fear of being overlooked.

WHAT A CONUNDRUM!

Is  this is the same intense roller coaster emotional ride everyone experiences? YIKES! Or is it just certain types?   Probably every  number  to some degree.   (Blame that bit of information on reading my son’s book,

The Enneagram: A Christian Perspective by Richard Rohr)

Creative people are very passionate.   God  sets our heart and soul free to feel  intense wonder when creating. This intensity  deals with  bitter devastation when the creation  fails or is rejected.

The creative personality runs the gamut in joy and pain. Am I right?

If one is Unwilling to allow God to bring peace and a sense of His centered ness,  the gate will continue to swing back and forth without end.

What is it like to be creative?

Creative Definition (adjective)

  1. resulting from originality of thought, expression, etc.; imaginative:

The story is fiction. The stories from our past can start our future stories.

Imagine yourself as a young child,  working on a family drawing all afternoon. The excitement inside can hardly be contained. You finish the yellow in the sun. The last smile on the youngest child is drawn.  The gift is spontaneous with no special reason for the labor. Just imaginative expression.

A bounce in your step takes you and your art work to the room where your parents are sitting. You wonder, which parent will raise their eyes first. As you stand for what seems an eternity, neither adult leaves their reading material. Your excitement wanes.

Suddenly, a sibling flies in the back door, BANG, shouting, ” We Won.”

Paper and book drop. Parents simultaneously  rise to check  what the commotion is about.

You droop back to your room. The art work goes in the waste basket.

Whether a creative in a sports family or an athletic in a family that values education. The label taken on is the same:

What I do is not important. I am not important.

Can you identify with this little girl? At that point, a strong STORY may be  constructed  not only in the creative realm but for life. “I am not seen for what I  enjoy.”

Will that be the basis of your life’s decisions?

Either :

  •  I will do what I want and I don’t care because no one else does or
  • I will BE what others want to see. I do not count.

Neither of these choices allow you to flow as the unique person God created you. You are not free to Worship Him or BE  yourself  within community.

How does this get resolved?

JESUS!

“This is the land I have been looking for all my life, though I never knew it till now…Come further up, come further in!” ― C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle”

As I spend time with Jesus, I find the centered ness of His creativity in me. The gift of my connection in Him is intimate, special and deep. That is the joy I want to share. Merton’s quote challenges me, to not be afraid, to be real and face the the pains from my past. I have to boldly realize the inner fear of rejection as a reality inside. It attacks  now sometimes, when expressing an  inner excitement.  In God’s grace and acceptance of me,  how will it  be handled? Will I know WHOSE  I am if the gift offered, is not received the same way it is given out?

The discovery of His center ness  may come as a powerful waterfall.

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Jesus through the Holy Spirit  brings peace and calm.  One comes to the other.  He controls the flow.

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The healing of  past hurts, brings freedom to present the flow. Less and less of my pain is  keeping the true reality of how He loves me from showing  through. Jesus tells me to Hang On. The truth in what He is declaring to  me is more beautiful than I can ever imagine.

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I AM A DAUGHTER OF THE KING!

I HAVE BEEN CALLED TO SHARE GOD’S HEART!

I AM LOVED!

How are you called to be released from past lies placed upon you? God loves you. He calls you His beloved. Receive and be released.

Be

Free

To

Worship

As

You

Were

Created!

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I am here to read thoughts you want to share.  We are on this creative journey together. I would like to encourage you in anyway I can. Leave a comment here or  join my Writer’s Facebook page.  You do not need to walk this path alone. ♥
1― Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island http://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/god-s-love


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I am Awesome Because

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I was thinking about another post but this kept running through my mind.  This was a question asked on  the Hope*Writer’s page.  The response was interesting. It took a long time before the first few answers were posted on the comment line. Do you find it easier to come up with the reasons you are not awesome,  why something is always  wrong? Yes, we are sinners and we have all fallen short of the glory of God. ( Romans 3:23). Read the next verse
and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. NIV
God put wonderful gifts inside each of us,  which are now being set free  to worship and give Him the honor He deserves. We are being released to love others with those creative gifts without the bondage of comparison and perfectionism. He is revealing ways to create through all the arts that will set the world on it’s ear.
What would be the next good step for you to take to enter into this marvelous adventure? This may be  more than a few podcasts on how to use Instagram or  Twitter.  Sink your teeth into a quote by A. W. Tozer.
 
“It might well be a wonderful revelation to some Christians if they were to get completely quiet for a short time, long enough, let us say, to get acquainted with their own souls, and to listen in the silence for the deep voice of the Eternal God.”1
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What is God saying to you?  Do the gifts make you Awesome? Is it what you can do that makes you a real zinger?

Start out  with WHOSE you are and WHO you are. That is what makes you AWESOME.  If  you are a Son or Daughter of the King, you are awesome.  Continually dwelling on the junk to be rooted out will forever keep your eyes on you. Forever dwelling on trying to reach the next huge goal will lead to  a draining life.  Instead what does the  Creator say about you?  What does He want you to share?

The words on our page need to reflect His Faithfulness in our times of faithlessness.  Give life stories which are  filled with Joy and Hope to a world crying out for truth.

Read this encouragement.  Spend time with God. How does He see you?  Allow God to reveal the deep dreams just waiting to be released.

I AM AWESOME BECAUSE——–

More times than not when you look in the mirror, that is probably not the first thing that comes to your mind. More like, “I can’t do things, I am not worthy, I will never be able to paint like so and so. yada, yada, yada. We either get prideful or we feel less than. Can you allow your heart to go to a place that says …”I am a Son or Daughter of the King. He has poured parts of His creativity into me to give Him Worship and share His love with others.” If you are serious about this it will cause you to be humble and ecstatic. Take this sentence and finish it with the gifts God has poured into you to flow.
Please share your thoughts.
Be
Free
To
Worship
As
You
Were
Created!
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1 Tozer, A. W. (2007-02-28). The Set of the Sail (Kindle Locations 155-157). Moody Publishers. Kindle Edition.

Be free to share your thoughts either here in the comments or start a discussion on my Facebook page.  Creativity can be lonely  and the enemy wants to isolate us.  We are here to encourage to be what God created us to be.


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Hope and Freedom to Share

TO LIVE SURROUNDED DAY BY DAY  FILLED WITH AGONY, FEAR AND ANXIETY.

THAT IS NOT GOD’S HEART FOR ME, FOR YOU!

Loneliness encircling its victim like a snake, squeezing tighter and tighter, til breathing becomes difficult. Air fights  just to move in and out.

This describes what my poor husband put up with from me before April 7-8.  I don’t  suffer from anxiety or panic attacks. This was a battle inside screaming at simple and difficult tasks:  “Why can’t I do this?”

I labelled not my worth as a writer to be no good.  My walk with Jesus, I saw to be sub-par, under the table, less than.

What Happened?

How does one in love with Jesus become depressed? How does one who knows the facts of His marvelous love become trapped in a downhill slide to yucky muck?

 I became consumed!

I became consumed with the trappings  of trying accomplish a certain goal. Every waking moment  was spent on  how to answer, unanswerable problems. My mind constantly went there instead of to my intimate walk with Jesus.

I  read my bible, a good assignment to check off.  The problem was, the words got stuck as in a pipe. Going in, but not going all the way through to my heart.

What was Jesus saying About ME personally?  What was He  trying to say To Me personally?

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I became  empty. A shell. I began hoping a flowing  connection would happen by getting it right  in “doing  the shoulds”.

The snake kept choking tighter and tighter.

God is so gracious and faithful. Even though I was not trusting in His love for me, God did not make me feel “less than” when I could not hear Him. Instead, He kept wooing  me. God knew the gifts He put inside me. He knew the junk I needed to release to Him.IMG_0914IMG_3981

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Another quote from Margaret Fenberg (FLOURISH)1

Cast your cares on him, share your deepest fears and you’ll soon discover:

The crux of uncertainty is the very place God wants to meet you.

Finally I heard God  say, “Sandi I have your back. Release your burdens to me. I have called you to be YOU. Come and dance in My Kingdom”

God showed me the   fear tearing  into my heart,  my worship, my creativity, ME came from COMPARING. I lost my joy as I saw  work, service, and actions of others as the goal I must achieve to be accepted by others. By God.

Engaging in the Kingdom (#eitk 2017) was a women’s  conference held at our church.  (April 7-8),  Jan Strout,  shared an exciting picture.  God was mixing an unique blend of wine for EACH one of us. Some red, some white and some a blend.

Jesus is enough.

 Jesus is pouring this unique wine into His daughters. It cannot be copied. It will be poured in and it will flow out it’s own special, crazy, individual, radical way.

I cannot share when I compare.

How often do you allow the enemy to use the big ‘C’ to absolutely corrupt God’s special outpouring into you, through you?  It comes  through obvious or subtle forms. Words  causing you to feel you are not living up to certain spiritual standards. Ministries  or creative gifting that are flying where yours seem to flop around as a fish dry land.

1-3 God is a safe place to hide,

   ready to help when we need him.

                            Ps 46   MSG

Jesus shed His blood  to destroy those death beating blows against us. He is Hope and Freedom.

The Father is with me. I’ve told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I’ve conquered the world.”  

                                      John 16:32-33 MSG

Renew your mind in the truth of Jesus Love in you, for You.

What are  the wonderful gifts God is flooding His world in and through you? Don’t be shy. Writing, Photography, Hospitality, Friendship? Maybe you don’t consider what you even have is anything special.  I am interested.  We can explore together.

Take God’s hand and walk in  Hope and Freedom with Him to be the explosive wonderful expressive person He created you to be.

 Be

Free

To

Worship

As

You

Were

Created!


1Margaret Feinberg,  FLOURISH  Live Loved, Live Fearless, Live Free.  ©2016 , p33

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WIND, RAIN, AND QUIET

IMG_0627IMG_0629IMG_063248-49 “If you work the words into your life, you are like a smart carpenter who dug deep and laid the foundation of his house on bedrock. When the river burst its banks and crashed against the house, nothing could shake it; it was built to last. But if you just use my words in Bible studies and don’t work them into your life, you are like a dumb carpenter who built a house but skipped the foundation. When the swollen river came crashing in, it collapsed like a house of cards. It was a total loss.”

                                                                                                    Luke 6 MSG
The  wind and rain attack without end . The tempest roars. Will I survive the buffet against my inner walls?

This mental and soul filled  storm  is the reality  of nothing less than an inner hurricane.  Chaotic thoughts, being tossed to and fro, wondering whether peace will ever be a day to day experience again.   Does this sound  familiar?  It can happen anytime.  An  attack  can come when you put yourself on the line in a risky situation. You open yourself us to a new situation and with the fervor deep  inside the answer comes out in a  dynamic “YES”.

You take the steps trusting the task ahead will be fulfilled in the way you envision when suddenly, something happens.  The bottom falls out. The sweet dreams you felt would become tangible are now crumbling before your eyes. The solid victory you could plainly see as a way to glorify God has turned sour in the storm. The wind, crashing waves make you  wonder “Did I make the correct decision?”.  Feelings of utter hopelessness and failure cause tears to flow.

The apostles made a decision and said YES to follow a a very Special Man. This Man had the words of Life giving them the hope and confidence He was the Messiah mentioned in the Old  Scriptures. He was the One to bring the salvation and freedom. Now their hopes were dashed as they saw Him hanging on a  cross.  The words given to them of hope, peace, everlasting joy were now turning  into streams of blood  flowing down a wracked  body. Their Friend was dying.

Suddenly the words come, “ It Is Finished” !

The world shakes. The temple curtain is ripped from top to bottom and :

QUIET!

How does one  handle the quiet?

Shame?

Despair?

                                                                                       Failure?

                                                 Loss?

Jesus follower’s were crushed under the weight of this pain. They did not know three days would be the end of their Silence. They longed for a touch and release. They were empty. Was there a  small thread they held on to?

Resurrection Sunday came. The Hallelujah  He has risen broke the silence. The true freedom their hearts longed for had been released.

With the strength and peace of the Holy Spirit, we walk  in days full  victory and freedom. As creatives, we can hear God’s heartbeat to express what He is saying in a very unique way.  We are able to receive His heart to join in the dance.

A creative is very sensitive. We receive and want to flow as a  gift from His heart.

A storm rises. A choice is made which may put my feet on the water.  I begin to sink.

Questions flare about:

  • Inadequacy.
  • Comparison with other creativity.
  • Who reads my posts?
  • Am I wasting my time doing this creative stuff?
  • Creativity is for everyone else but not for me.

Despair, fear and emotional challenges becomes so great I cry out :

“What do you want me to do? GIVE UP? I will if that is what You want.”

Quiet!

The choices in the times of emptiness and loneliness will determine the future of my walk.  God never leaves.  He may be silent. The Joy of His presence may not be obvious. He allows me to cry.  Does that mean I am to quit Worshiping through Creativity? His promises are always true even when the dreams and paths turn out differently than anticipated.

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As creatives who worship,  the enemy will try to use our gifts to shake our foundation. As we write,  when we create story through photography and art, it is all a reflection of our heart to worship our Creator.  The enemy will use the storm to attack our foundation.  The enemy will also use silence and times of the unknown and darkness to rattle our foundation.

 Christ has set us free to live a free life. So take your stand! Never again let anyone put a harness of slavery on you.
Galatians 5:1 MSG

In the storm and the silence, the foundation built on the intimacy and love of Jesus will weather your life in truth.

You are not alone!

  Be

Free

To

Worship

As

Your

Were

Created!

Feel free to share your struggles in this walk of creativity and worship. All of life is creative worship.


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The Alabaster Jar

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A warm evening with a gentle breeze blowing bits of sand.  The streets are  empty. Lit candles glow  through  open windows show families enjoying their meals.   Laughter carries up and down the vacant cobblestones. Simon the Pharisee  is very delighted. Tonight he is hosting Jesus, the PROPHET whom  everyone is talking about. Almost giddily he thinks,  “Maybe I can find something out about this Man  that makes Him so special.”

Is the Pharisee, really showing an act of hospitality or are there ulterior motives?

 

Another part of town, a colder, darker part of town  contains less laughter. The meals are not filled with gaiety. Joy does not filter through these streets. The normal sound  is chaos from, wailing, unattended babies and  coughing,  sick children. If laughter is heard, it is anything but joyful.

 

The Woman’s small living quarters are in this part of town. While she lived with her mother, her house was decent. Her mother made a decent living. Now the Woman is alone. She makes her living in a sad fashion non decent manner.  Her heart is empty.

 

The Woman heard rumors. ” Could this be the Prophet.The Teacher everyone is talking about.?” she pondered. Gazing at the beautiful alabaster jar, her mind swirls..

  • “ I have no right to even think about going to that house.
  •   I caught a quick glance of Him in the market. His gentle eyes gave me hope.
  •  There will be other men in that house  who will know me possible who have known me. (she shutters).
  •   He looked into the eyes of that sick girl with such love and tenderness. With one touch a soft word,  He healed her.

 

Of course He healed her. She is holy. I AM NOT!

Could she deny the deep yearning and passion  drawing her to go to the house.and give?

 

The Woman looked again at the jar containing the costly oils for her livelihood. The jar was priceless. It belonged to her mother.

The Woman could not dwell on the matter any longer. Fear would consume her thoughts  making the decision for her if she did not move.

Quickly she wrapped a simple  shawl around her head and face  Grabbing the alabaster jar, she left her home. She could not be  bothered as she moved  to the other side of town. The fear of failure and  rejection ran rampant through her body. Beads of sweat from the brisk walk and the heat did not stop her body from shaking. She had no idea what to expect once she reached her destination.

The Woman did not consider how food would be purchased or bills paid after the oil was gone. It was not a consequence to consider now.

As unrealistic as it seemed, the intense draw to give everything to this Man was the only reality that mattered. The Woman would break her beloved jar, if she must.  She would pour out her oil, her love, her all.

 

Everyone was enjoying the well prepared meal. Food was perfect for the special guest.  Jesus was a perfect guest. Too perfect for Simon’s  taste. Nothing was happening. The evening was coming to a close with not even a tiny miracle or odd word.

 

The conversations continued. Without notice, as though covered by a shadowy protection, the Woman was on her knees in front of Jesus. Upon noticing the crumpled figured at His feet, the other men, close to Jesus gasped and moved away. They knew who she was. They knew her reputation.  Simon sneered to himself , “He can’t be as good as they say He is.  He should know what kind of a woman she is.”

Jesus looked sternly toward  Simon and said,  “Silence”.

Simon blinked being caught off guard.

 

Jesus eyes returned to the Woman. Softly and gently His gaze took in her actions, he took in her heart.  Her tears ran down her face. She could not stop crying. Raising to her feet, she broke the seal of the jar and stood over Jesus head. She tipped the jar.   The thick contents poured slowly  onto the head  beneath her.  With eyes  closed and head slightly lifted, Jesus received the entire offering, down His head, His beard, His shoulders. . This fragrant perfume flowed to his feet. The pungent aroma filled the dining area and beyond.

Moments went by. Not a sound.

No words passed between Jesus and the Woman. He looked into her eyes, into her soul as if to say.:  “Your sins are forgiven. Go and sin no more.”

 

The Woman unbound her hair to dry  tears and oil from Jesus.  Such deep love she had never known. It protected her from the judgemental statements against her actions.

 

” Wasteful!  If you really wanted to repent, the oil should have been sold to meet the needs of the poor,”  came  the verbal accusation on her pure act of love .  The Woman was not enslaved  by these attacks.  His love without rejection freed her.

 

Simon got what he wanted.  A card to use against this Prophet. He smiled to himself, “Either this Man  does not know the sinners, which means He isn’t a real prophet, or He does not keep the law by allowing a woman of this sort to touch Him. This Jesus cannot be the Messiah.”

 

The Woman rebound her hair as the men resumed their meal.  She gathered her shawl. With one last glance to Jesus, she turned and left the house without the alabaster jar.

 

As she walked down the street, the Woman’s  steps were light, relaxed, peaceful.  She had  no need to protect her face. Everything was  bright.  She looked to the sky. “Do stars always twinkle so beautifully?” She smiled.  Her breathing was deep and full. The Woman felt Joy. The Woman was Free..

glory of the Lord

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In this Lenten season, dare to go deep and experience the intimacy of real people referred to in the Passion stories. My story is a fictional  adaptation of Matthew 26:6-10 Mark 14:3-9,  and Luke 7:37-39. God is releasing people from fears through honest deep, intimate interaction with Him. Take His hand and walk through whatever it is He wants to show you.