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GOD LOVES ME EVEN IN MY FEAR

God fiercely loves us through our flaws and imperfections—not in spite of them.1

                                                                                                         Margaret Feinberg

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As you know, God is walking me through a journey in redefining the word Fear.

Redefining might not be the correct word. Possibly the adventure (if I can call it that) is how  do I am respond to fear? How to walk  when approached/ surrounded in an attack?

If I were to look in a mirror while in a fear-filled state, who would I see? Who do you see? A strong Spirit-filled Christian who knows her joy? or someone questioning her  worth? Do I  start judging myself  as “less than?”IMG_0378

Is it safe to cry out in the pain? I am not always honest with this emotion. You get be a certain age and are duped to believe you are suppose to have it all together. How will people look at me in my  angst?  How will I be treated if they really knew  of this silly fear? Would I receive words of true encouragement or just biblical rhetoric?

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Even as Christians, do we honestly allow ourselves to open this door to our hearts? The fear to recognize and admit we have fear. The exposure of shame or pride may  become greater than the original fear itself.

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Victory through each fear happens in honesty. Admitting where you are. Fear is by no means greater than God’s love,  but something is present. The need for help is real.

                I need you God, Help me in this. Take my hand. I know the facts of “Your grace is sufficient”. I need to experience the reality of that sufficiency.  I need to see Your Face.

The following is a simple story where God walked with me. I saw fear and called myself incompetent. God saw me and gave me His Love.:

As I received  instructions for a straightforward job, I nodded my head expressing I understood the task expected of me. It was a simple task, but not one I had done for awhile. Suddenly my mind went into the question/attack mode. I was struck with thoughts flying out of nowhere saying:

  • YOU ARE FORGETTING WHAT THEY JUST ASKED YOU TO DO. THEY JUST TOLD YOU! HUH!
  • YOU WILL NEVER REMEMBER WHAT TO DO!
  • YOU WILL START DOING THE JOB, THEN FORGET AND LOOK DUMB!
  • YOU ARE REALLY STUPID!

I was never in any real danger. The whole inner conversation may  sound silly but fear has no rules. It just attacks. Big jobs, little jobs. Lots of experience, No experience.  No matter who you are, what you are doing, what is happening to you.  Fear attacks your weak points.

I know God loves me.  I am a Daughter of the King,  but lies/fear yell so loud, it is hard to remember and walk in that reality.  I needed to run into God’s arms for His reality in my weakness. This brings the victory.

Before I actually needed to perform the activity, I sat with my journal and laid my inside angst to God.  The following words poured out.:

      “Fear takes a shape of lies. Lies which yell INCOMPETENT. Reality? My brain has cross wires not completely understanding what is asked.”

    This was God’s response to me:  “ ‘Sandi I am with you. Be At Peace’.”


I could not pretend everything was fine. I went to God in my fear. I asked Him to clear my brain.The Creator of the Universe came to me in my time of need.  He stated “You are loved”.  My fear left. I completed the task in peace.

How I respond to the fear will allow God to work deeper in my worship of Him. Pride or shame can keep a top layer of fear covering the truth where God wants to take me. When I am honest with Him, or in a safe community, the lies of fear will not keep strangling me.    God’s perfect love surrounded me and cast out the fear as I laid down the lies inside calling me incompetent. I was honest about what was going on inside. That chain was broken. I could breathe.IMG_0905IMG_1837

God has something He wants to release in you. Allow Him to Love you in the way only He can love you.  As you are walking in His love, dealing with the big and little fears all around, worship will flow.

Be

Free

To

Worship

As

You

Were

Created!


1FLOURISH Live Loved. Live Fearless. Live Free ©2016 Margaret Feinberg p.20

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WHY READ A BOOK ANYWAY?

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I am a writer. I discovered words touch the inner part of my soul. Because words from all areas communicate to me, I want to touch and communicate through words as well.

This exploration to inner and outer lands started when I was very young. I was the type of child who had a book in front of her nose most of the time. Because I had rheumatic fever at age 13, a good portion of my youth was limited to sedentary activities. Lucky for all I enjoyed reading books.

This post is not a total break from my series on fear. Fear comes in all shapes and sizes. You may be afraid to start a book because it looks too long. You may be afraid to break out of your comfort zone of genres ? Are you afraid you do not really have enough time to read.. (Kids, housework, a job, your own writing…   life)

WHY READ A BOOK ANYWAY?

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To better your ability to communicate, the more you read, the more tools in you will have in your toolbox.

  • How did previous authors write ?
  •  Study current  or past techniques explored to express and better communicate your own creativity.
  • Reading biographies help recognize you are not alone in  experiencing the pain you feel. What emotional /spiritual choices were made to handle stress or discouragement?  Is it something you want to emulate or not?

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As a mother needs to take time to relax and play with her child with no agenda, it is good  for a creative writer, to read something for relaxation. Business in all forms can get crazy, but to relax with a gentle fiction can allow your brain to go to another place and rest.

No agenda. God throws the seeds of wildflowers on the side of the road. The beauty of the purple lupine, wild daisy and Indian paintbrush have no specific value, other than to bring joy to the eyes of the drivers.   It is amazing how your heart can grow with the words you take in. It is also  fun to color books with nothing to benefit from what is created  other than watching colors bloom on a page.

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In January  from blog to blog, book titles started coming in all shapes and colors. It does not matter what creative bent you are from, they all expressed,  “README!”  Bookstores are  continuously lined with all the newly published works.

The following are a few points which might help  reach your goal  to actually finish those wonderful writings.

▪Don’t start a new read when going to bed. At least don’t use this time for intense reading. Wait until you can fully take in the author’s words. Not when you are fighting to keep your eyes open.

▪ .If your phone is a problem, turn it off while you are reading. Give the book your attention.

▪ On your days off, schedule some time to read. This is a gift you can give yourself. Relax, Learn, See a Deeper You. Expand. Bless yourself.

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▪ If a book doesn’t grab you,  don’t feel you need to keep reading it. Give it at least maybe 50 pages for a good try.  After that, it might be time to go onto the next one calling your name. Don’t feel bad. Hand the book to a friend  or donate it to  a share library.

▪ Choosing  a bigger book or a classic? This may be take more work to get into.  If you are finally tackling  The Lord of the Rings  (after seeing  the movie?)   here is a great  time to go to a coffee shop, order your favorite latte and settle in for awhile. Don’t try quick start and stop reads to see the book is worth your time. This one will take more than 50 pages.

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  • Try keeping a list of your books. After finishing the book, write down  your opinion? Would you loan it to a friend? Did it have a positive or negative effect on you? No effect at all?

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  • Audio books are ways to enjoy that literary classic or other gems  while doing  activities. Even though it is not actually reading, it allows you to finish many books you thought you did not have time for.   Jpeg
  • Hopefully this last point brings a challenge.  Check books not in your normal genre. Diversity in  authors, cultures and genre might take you out of your comfort zone.    Chose a book of Shakespearean poems. Possibly the books you always go to are nonfiction. An historical fiction could take you on a wonderful adventure you would never before considered. expand-your-library If fiction is the route you normally enjoy, picking a nonfiction or two could open a door to areas you never knew existed. It could bring a dynamic change to your life.

God will speak to you through books.  Are you willing to go past a fear in your reading?  Will you allow God to take you to places He wants to speak to  you? Go on an adventure.

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Be

      Free

            To

Worship

As

You

           Were

Created.

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Ideas were taken from this article written by Connie Ogle:

http://www.miamiherald.com/entertainment/books/article124511389.


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Don’t Panic!

 

How can I raise my hands with complete abandonment, absolute passionate creativity if I am afraid?

How can I totally lose myself in the artistic swirl surrounding me to express deep love for My Savior when doubt  crosses my path?

No bands around me. No ropes to strangle me. No inside critical words to distract me. That is my desire.
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As much as I would love to express to each and everyone the deepest beauty of God’s love, it does not flow sweetly all the time.  I am loved in the Psalms. I am challenged by the words “COME AND FOLLOW ME”. The Creator of the Universe calls me to  Dance in His Kingdom.   This gives me a very deep jump-start at the beginning of the day.  God is GOOD. God is  LOVE!  My heart burns with a fire so deep,  I seriously believe will go on forever.

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As the day goes on something happens. I think you  know what I am talking about. I can’t  quite put my finger on it  but slowly uninvited, unwelcome guests start  making themselves far too comfortable in my space.

Not bad things, really. Just normal everyday activities. Life.

 

  • What do I have  for supper?
  • Peter’s friends are coming over, is the house clean?
  • Why doesn’t my wonderful sweet dog take a rest so I can write?
  • Bills, Clothes. Vacuum, shovel the walk.
  • Why can’t I create and say what I want to say in this blog?
  • Start a newsletter? What is that?
  • Does anyone really want to read what I write anyway?

This is just the beginning.

Left unchecked, chaos, fear or even the humdrum of life become reality instead of the Who I engaged with this morning. If I allow my mind to be encased in trivial or gigantic affairs, the lens of seeing myself as a Daughter of the King changes into being a slave to the cares of the world.

What happened? I was walking hand in hand with Jesus and suddenly,  did  I put on different glasses?                                                                                                                                                                                 When I closed my devotional, shut my bible, hit the button on my computer,  did  I end my worship walk with God saying, ” See Ya tomorrow?”

NO!

The physical worship needs to continue throughout the day. In my quiet time  I need quality time. This demands more than reading mere words on a page to fulfill my daily quotient. I need to engage in deep, extravagant relational time with the One who loves me. In that moment, seeds are sown into my heart, but it is only the beginning. When uninvited or unwelcome  guests start tapping on the door or sliding in sideways, I’m not meeting them alone. I’m still on my worship walk. The lens is far  different.

 

BUT!!!   you say….

 “I am not a super saint.” “I am not called to be Mother Teresa.”

“I am not going to be a pastor or a missionary.”

 

Are you afraid to go on this deep walk with God?  What is the alternative?  It is easy to slip into the lens of the world. But Jesus did not separate those He called to show His love.  If you said YES to Jesus, then  you are called to intimacy. To Know Him and to Show Him.

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  16 “You didn’t choose me, remember; I chose you, and put you in the world to bear fruit, fruit that won’t spoil. As fruit bearers, whatever you ask the Father in relation to me, he gives you.

17 “But remember the root command: Love one another.

                                                                                                            John 15:16 MSG

 

Are you  sitting with the Lover of your soul , allowing Him to gently have His way in all your walk, even after your devotional is closed? Do the cares of this world seem to loom larger than the  A.M. Bible  reading?  God extends His hand for a deeper, intimate continuous worship walk throughout the day. The deeper the walk  with God, the less the panic. He created the universe. He created you. He created me. He knows our needs.

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I look up to the mountains; does my strength come from mountains? No, my strength comes from GOD, who made heaven, and earth, and mountains. He won’t let you stumble, your Guardian God won’t fall asleep. Not on your life! Israel’s Guardian will never doze or sleep. GOD’s your Guardian, right at your side to protect you— Shielding you from sunstroke, sheltering you from moonstroke. GOD guards you from every evil, he guards your very life. He guards you when you leave and when you return, he guards you now, he guards you always.

                                                                                          Psalm 121:1-8 MSGi-look-to-the-mountains

 

Be

Free

To Worship

As You Were

Created!


Thank you Anna and Nicolas for the mountain photo. Location- Guanajuato, Mexico.