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Step INTO the QUIET

Heb. 6 NIV 10 God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. 11We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, so that what you hope for may be fully realized.

The end of the school year is upon us. In fact, for this family, many endings are coming upon me. In my last blog post, you read that our son will be graduating in June. Our daughter will be traveling to a foreign country for at least two months, but the amount spent was for a one way ticket. ūüė¶ Questions ¬†come ¬†floating to the surface during this ¬†season to clutter the celebrations: Did I do a good job? If you have a child leaving your home city whether it is because of work or the draw of adventure, you may be praying, did I give them proper¬† tools to make the right decisions.? Will they get hurt? Here are other queries.: What will my graduate do now? What will I do now? Will I be needed? How will I be needed in their lives? Oh no – Will I be needed/ or wanted in anyone‚Äôs life?¬† With your own circumstances, you fill in the blank. My position for the last 18 years is coming to a close. You could say I am retiring. Yes, our son will be living at home as he attends the local community college, but my role in his life will be, must be different. Kind of scary at times. God is always at ¬†work in my life which means these questions were being addressed already through the year. Am I truly helping ¬†with growth and maturity or do I have a subtle need for control? ¬† Remember this is the youngest. Of course I¬† want him to succeed. WHY ? Was I encouraging actions to be completed ¬†for his sake of for mine?¬† HMMM Good question. Anxiety and tears were getting slightly out of hand depending on his response. ¬†My husband told me he could see I would open my hand for a while. Yay peace. Then a slight turn and well, the circle started again. God is so patient with me. The open hand for me is never dependent on my actions.¬† He knows what I need and when I¬† need His exact input. During my quiet time, I was ¬†ranting about MY lack of direction for my son.(Do you see the irony of that statement?)¬† God asked ‚ÄúWill you be willing to allow him to grow, ¬†even if it means you are not the primary one having an effect on him?‚ÄĚ OH GOODNESS!!! UGH.I do not even know what that looks like. I have done it this way for so long.¬† Was I not to give him suggestions on work or jobs? ¬† I did not want to pick up the shattered¬† pieces if plans fall apart. —–God’s Response: TRUST ME Breathe a Sigh! Friends and teachers from school become involved in his life during his senior year, drawing out¬† positive gifts God had placed inside. These gifts might have always been close to the surface, but my focus or approach to other areas was not letting him see it. ¬†Keeping my hands and eyes open allowed him to want to try. Spiritual growth has taken place where he is spontaneously praying for or about¬†friends without being prompted.—–:) After reflecting upon the question, dialoguing with God and having the gifts pointed out to me, ¬†my eyes returned to the verse of the day.

Heb. 6:10-11 10 For God is not unjust. He will not forget how hard you have worked for him and how you have shown your love to him by caring for other believers,[b] as you still do. 11 Our great desire is that you will keep on loving others as long as life lasts, in order to make certain that what you hope for will come true.

I stepped into the quiet. God met me. He showed me  I needed to release my son. God showed me the love I have for my son will not be forgotten.It has gone deep. It will come out as God controls and directs the plan. I will keep loving him. The expression will be different.  This is a new and exciting journey for both of us. Moms, you who are releasing grads (especially your last ones), step into the quiet. Mothers whose children are moving to new adventures through work or travels, release yourselves to God. Allow God to speak His heart into yours. Free your anxieties to Him. He sees your need. He will give you Direction and Wisdom. God will surround you with His arms in Love and Peace.Mom and Peter at Nanaboujou Matthew 11:28

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EXPERIENCE GOD and EXPRESS GOD

Phil. 4: 6-7 NLT
6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ.

This is easier to read at times than to live out on a daily basis. It can glare in my face when I try to keep  everything together on my own. I forget this is not my job.
I have a wonderful son graduating from high school in June.  This son happens to be our second and last child   graduating from high school. Empty Nest Syndrome door is starting to appear.

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My role for him will be different. It has to be different. Life will change.
Don’t worry about anything. Instead pray about everything.

The traveler in our house, whose third year at UMD was spent in a CULTURAL EXCHANGE program in England, has a wonderful opportunity. In May she is leaving again. This time it is  on an internship  with an organization called ONEHOPE.  This organization helps in meeting needs of orphans, refugees and prostitutes in a city in Italy.  I am very proud of her strength in pursuing this endeavor. The ticket purchased was for one way.

Do I fear I will never see my daughter again? No. Is there a possibility that the time period will be a long one before my eyes will see her and I put my arms around her.???

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Don’t worry about anything. Instead pray about everything.

While studying art or computer at a local community college my son will have greater independence from home. My daughter will be gone not only from home, but from the country. My life will be different.

No longer will I be the school schedule keeper. No more early morning breakfast needed between 6:30 and 7:00.  No longer am I  the ride organizer to and from school. No more lunch order forms to fill out.   I fulfilled this job in some capacity for the past 18 years. My job is coming to an end.

Don’t worry about anything. Instead pray about everything.
‚Äú Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.‚ÄĚ ——In¬† some¬† fancy language or spruced up ” I have¬† it all together words”.

NO  God knows my heart. My relationship with Him is one where honest tears, or  fear with hands opened wide to receive, or head bowed low in need is the norm.   HIS LOVE ALWAYS gives me what I NEED.

7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ.

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After I thank God, I will experience His peace, beyond anything I can understand.

Right now, knowing my daily roles, routine, and needs¬† will be shifting, I have to confess that I am not walking in the perfect peace¬† of this verse¬† all of the time.¬†¬† ūüôā

It is ‚ÄúMother‚Äôs Day,¬† day after tomorrow (May 10th).¬† I will always be a Mother, to my two wonderful children but:¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬†¬† How do I define my daily role in their lives as they become more independent?”
How do I define my daily role in life when it has been defined by children?

Is this a fear for you too? Are you a Mom who is walking through a new stage? A new door?  You are not alone.

Reread NLT Phil 4:6-7
6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what your need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your heart and mind as you live in Christ Jesus.IMG_0806
I am limited if I surround myself with protective barriers which do not allow me to EXPERIENCE GOD as He walks me through the next door. ( i.e. Fear of the unknown,  Comparing my writing with others,  feelings of uselessness)

A step can be to thank God for all of the blessing I have experienced these past 18 years. Allow myself to eventually receive His peace . Then walk in the freedom being offered to me.

Freedom for me is asking God how He wants me to creatively Express Him and the intimacy  I experience.  This blog, writing and photography  has been part of that freedom. What freedom have you found in life to Express God?  Leave a  comment if you feel like sharing.
Children going to their next stage in one form or another are an example of my life’s challenge. As I live in Christ Jesus and allow Him to define my role, I will receive peace.¬† What changes and challenges are you experiencing?¬†¬† Tell God your needs. Experience God‚Äôs Peace,¬† Happy Mother’s Day.

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